Missing Alan :)

Okay, so I have the most wonderful husband in the world and I know it! I hate days like today and, unfortunately, there are probably going to be a lot like this over the next few months. He works 7 am-3 pm and I work 12 pm-7 pm. I hate being away from him all day and I know that I'll be so tired by the time that I get home that I won't feel like doing anything. My feet have been killing me every day when I get off work. Yesterday was especially rough because I ran the cash register all day long and had to stand in the same place. I also hate that we can't have water (to drink) on the sales floor. That means if you get swamped at the register for 4 hours, you don't have anything to drink either. Ideally, if you are working an eight hour shift, you get a 15 minute paid break after 2 hours, a 30 minute unpaid break (lunch) after 4 hours, and another 15 minute paid break after 6 hours...yeah, that's not gonna happen. We were swamped yesterday and they had called people in...we had every register open and had every location at cutting counter covered. I can't begin to imagine how it's going to be during grand opening in 2 weeks and especially how it will be during the holidays!

At least I have Alan though :) Coming home and seeing him is the highlight of my day. He's even sweet enough to rub my feet at night, which really makes them feel a lot better. He's so wonderful to me. Last week, when I was sick, he left work to take me home and make sure I was okay and then on Thursday (which was his off day), he spent the whole day taking care of me and making sure that I didn't overdo myself. I can't believe that God blessed me with such a wonderful man to spend my life with. A few weeks ago, we weren't talking at work about our names. I mentioned that I had changed my middle name to my maiden name after Alan and I got married. Someone asked me what my name would be if we got divorced and I said "we aren't going to get divorced." She said "yeah, but what if he leaves you or you just don't want to be married anymore?" I told her that we said "until death do us part" and that we meant it...that wasn't just a promise to each other, but a promise that we made to God. She said that she wished she could find someone that she was that in love with. I guess that's part of the problem with society today is that people think love is always supposed to be easy and that, if you aren't "in love" with someone, there's nothing left. Our society has fallen into the illusion that nothing bad ever happens to you if you're in love and that relationships are always perfect when you are in love...no one ever has bad breath, no one ever has stinky feet (or farts, lol), and you get roses everyday. Well, that's not reality.
Reality is knowing that my breath is horrible in the morning (yes, I admit it). It's understanding that roses aren't something we can afford. It's acknowledging that neither of us are perfect, but that we are both willing to try. It's knowing that I'm definitely not the easiest person to get along with, but that he loves me so much and understands me better than anyone else and that he is willing to take the time to make me feel better.

I guess I'm just writing this as a way to express my feelings about my marriage. I have a wonderful husband who loves me for who I am and who wants to help me reach my ultimate goal of Heaven. I could not ask for more :)